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Life is kind'of a very crazy thing I found myself trying so hard to hold onto the things I should just let go and low and behold something new crops up in life to remind me that I'm capable of happiness found in the strangest of ways my roommate is the life of my dorm life my friends are the best support systems ever chalk and bubbles can lead to great revelations and I'm loved and liked So yea I'm graduating big deal If I put forth the effort I'll be able to hold onto the ties that bind and release the anchors that drown I tried diligently to keep this journal but I fell very short of my expectations but one of the something n

I suppose I should say when everything changes I AM A HIGHSCHOOL SENIOR things are going to change I hope that my friendships don't deteriorate I'd like to keep jessica puvi jay sierra jamie megan rosemary sam martha joel ben chase christina michael polina aerial justin and all my other asms friends in my life. Why form bonds with people if when you leave to make your way in life those bonds deteriorate.  I don't wanna be that girl who graduates and then with new friends kick out the old.  I don't want that but should I just accept that as inevitable... I love my friends so much they have seen me at my worst and helped to bring me to my

what do I do when giving presents isn't enough to fill the hole inside what do I do when sadness washes over me like its high tide what do I do when all I want is for my mother to hold me in my arms and have her motherly love push away the chill with her warm where do I go to run away from myself who do you think about when your minds on someone else how do I manage the pain inside of me and hold back the tears I try to get over you but we were together for a year I don't want you to know that I miss you or to know that I care so much I don't want you to know that when we dance I'm just happy for you touch I don't want you to